Forgiven & Set Free!

Forgiven & Set Free!


-Anonymous

I write this piece in order to help any woman out there who is thinking that God will not forgive you for having an abortion. This article is not easy to write. Thirty years ago I had an abortion. Nine years after my abortion, my child and I fled an abusive relationship, and I became a Christian. I got down on my hands and knees and asked Jesus to come into my heart, I repented of my sins, (ALL of them), and I asked Jesus to take control of my life. I thanked him for dying for my sins. Oh how my life changed. I now had peace and forgiveness. I moved from a life of fear, anxiety, and hopelessness to one of freedom in Christ. I slept like a baby after God got me out of my abusive relationship. My baby and I were now free of that situation, with God guiding us each step of the way.
I thought of the child I could've had, the one I had chosen to abort years earlier, while in my 20's. I thought of him or her and wondered what kind of person he or she would have grown up to be. I also knew that there were very few people I could talk to about my horrible mistake. I did confide in a good friend, and I thankfully belonged to a church where I could talk to others, and seek forgiveness. However, I never did address that sin straight on. I simply did not want to think about it. Was this maybe the unpardonable sin? Had God saved me but I still had the black cloud of 'half forgiven' over my head?
I found out I was wrong. It is not the unpardonable sin. Through a woman named Kathy at Pregnancy Resources, I found out that God really did forgive me- totally! It was me that never forgave myself. Kathy kindly encouraged me to do the workbook 'Forgiven and Set Free' with her. Every week for many weeks I did an intense Bible study about first, my sin and the seriousness of it, and then about BELIEVING that my sin was totally forgiven. The workbook was filled with scripture. The Holy Spirit worked through those women at the Pregnancy Center- all of them. I was encouraged and hugged. I was given the love of Jesus. The last session I gave my baby a name. My baby has a soul and I will see my child again. I recommend Pregnancy Resources post abortion recovery & healing program.
“As long as I kept silent, my bones wasted away. I groaned all day. For day and night your hand was heavy upon me, my strength withered as in dry summer heat. Then I declared my sin to you, my guilt I did not hide. I said, I confess my sins to the Lord, and you took away the guilt of my sin.”
~Psalm 32:3-5